Why I am writing? The untold story of Mayank Raj

1st Ocotober, 2026

Today is 1st of October (Thursday), I am very sad and not well right now, feeling too much low and it's like reminding of someone I loved the most but she didn't got to see my love. Yes, I have started writing my Journal for the girl whom I loved and I am loving right now, and she is no more with me. I know this is a blog site but I have no other places and anyone to share my thoughts and love.

The story is about a girl name starting from "S", If I talk about very beginning of my story, there a was a friend of mine named "Mayank" (I know the name is same of mine too), I and he lived together in Noida, India in a College hostel of IILM University, Greater Noida. If I talk about Mayank, he is one of my very good friend whom I want always to be happy and rise up.

Why did I talked about Mayank? The reason is, my love story began from there. Once Mayank was talking with her friends and I went to his room to chill and do fun, and I sat beside of him on his bed, and saw he was talking with his friends (2 girls) on WhatsApp video call, and what I did I heard the voice of one of the girl which was too pretty and cached up my heart. I tried to make some fun and tried to talk with her and came to know her name.

Her name was "Simran", she was living in Ranchi at that time but she is currently in Dehradun, after few days I tried to talk with her on Instagram by sharing the snap of my friend, and she also replied to me, slowly we started texting each other, started making fun, and text messages turned into calls, after few time the calls began to be as long as 120 to 180 minutes and so on. 

This was the first phase of my love life, when I completely started thinking of her and mind and heart was completely relying of her thoughts, voice and name. So, I decided to propose her, I did make a call to her started talking to her and proposed her on the call from Greater Noida by saying "Kya hum dono ke ghar ka bijli ka bill ek ho sakta hai kya?" meaning what if my and her electricity bills come together? 

The situation while I was proposing to her was Insane, the hostel of mine, the dark night, the peace in my heart, the sounds of winds and insects was quite and moment was full of love. I proposed her and she agreed to me and my love story began, and yes I was damn lucky that I came across a girl who was very pretty, her voice was so beautiful just like the butterflies and she was mine, I was so happy that day, I started crying for her, without letting her know.

2nd October, 2026 

So I just opened my laptop and remembered that I started writing Journal of which can make my heart and pain relief from my past love story and I have started typing here.

After 1-2 months I came to my hometown i.e. Patna and Simran came to meet me from Ranchi for 2-3 days, and genuinely, after this I thought If a girl can do this for me then she is the one of my life, and my love was more leveled up for her. She came I went with my bike and picked her up from the railway station, tied her shoe lace and came to the home with her. On the way, while coming to the home, she hugged me on the bike and the time period was night as the weather was too calm and peaceful, this was one of the best moment of my love story.

I prepared chicken curry for her and let her eat the same from my hand, hugged each other and had a beautiful night together. The day was full of love and peace for me. We roamed out, went for coffee had fun and after 2 days she went from Patna after leaving memories into my heart, this was the first and last time I met her, I am literally crying while writing to this journal.  

We were living with a good relationship and everything was working good and fine and I was quite happy with Simran, but yes there were few problems like I was unable to give proper time and make bare minimum proper efforts for her, but this was not intentionally. As already said we were in an long-distance relationship, I was way far from her, but I always wanted her to be happy and I wanted to make the maximum efforts and time I could have gave to her, but "efforts" are different for all peoples and I tried my best for her but she was unable to find my love and efforts after few months. The phase was I started thinking for our future and at the same time she was going away from me.